Someone recently sent me this excerpt in a care package from perhaps the greatest preacher of all time, Charles Spurgeon. It was a great encouragement to me and hope that it is to you too regardless of what you are going through.
For thou wilt light my candle.
It may be that my soul sits in darkness; and if this be of a spiritual kind, no human power can bring me light. Blessed be God! he can enlighten my darkness, and at once light my candle. Even though I may be surrounded by a 'darkness which may be felt,' yet he can break the gloom, and immediately make it bright around me.
The mercy is, that if he lights the candle none can blow it out, neither will it go out for lack of substance, nor burn out of itself through the lapse of hours. The lighters which the Lord kindled in the beginning are shining still. The Lord's lamps may need trimming, but he does not put them out.
Let me, then, like the nightingale, sing in the dark. Expectation shall furnish me with music, and hope shall pitch the tune. Soon I shall rejoice in a candle of God's lighting. I am dull and dreary just now. Perhaps it is weather, or bodily weakness, or the surprise of a sudden trouble; but whatever has made the darkness, it is God alone who will bring the light. My eyes are unto him alone. I shall soon have the candle of the Lord shining about me; and, further on in his own good time, I shall be where they need no candle, neither light of sun. Hallelujah!